This word/phrase has come up several times this week and I know it’s the Lord’s ‘provision’ (… see?!) to remind us that He has had us in His hand up to this point and He will continue and that He provides everything we need…
+ He provided a decorated house for Christmas before the idea of decorating even crossed my mind.
+He provided a doctors appointment for next week – I reached out to request an appointment for next week as a follow up to second opinion and the nurse told me it was already scheduled for Monday. Because of a fun family trip to VA with friends I had rescheduled my 11.22 appt for 12.22 but totally forgotten. He provided the appointment I needed over 6 weeks in advance.
+He provided a message and offer to help from the adored doctor we met at MD Anderson before I even considered reaching out.
+He provided an appointment with renowned breast cancer doctor in Houston for my first choice of days (this Friday, 12.19) before I even asked or mentioned my preference (or even knew if I would get an appointment at all much less for the one day I had in mind in his schedule which, I am guessing, may not have another opening for weeks).
+He provided friends who came over today and asked if their company could financially provide for a nanny and/or housekeeper in upcoming months. Yes, you read that right.
+He provided a friend to wrap Christmas presents and friends to bring meals and friends to run errands and friends to bring coffee and sessies and to send flowers for encouragement.
+He has provided DAILY for Lincolns childcare needs – and often after not stating the need to anyone but the Lord Himself and then HE prompts His children to reach out and offer just what we need.
+He has provided our ability to afford expensive but very good health insurance (poor Blue Cross Blue Shield with me as their insured …)
+He has provided me with a mom who has offered come over every day, both before and after work, to help with any needs we have (she’s like this wonderful little fairy that makes everything look good and clean before we go to bed or before we start our day).
+He provides laughter for the journey … This week I put Lincoln down and started to pray but he rather rudely interrupted and asked me to pray for ME instead of him. I asked what I should pray for and he said, “Pray for your back and your bref …” My bref?! I replied and said, “what’s my bref? Do I have bad breath?! … Or do you mean breast?” And he said, “yeah pray for your breasts and the lions and the elephants and my lamp.” For reals?! I drew the line and told him I wouldn’t pray for the lamp but we got my back and breasts covered in prayer!
+He has provided answers to your prayers and healing. My back pain has been totally manageable with ibuprofen since Saturday – just one week after morphine and Hydrocodone were entirely insufficient for pain management.
+He has provided incredible HOPE in the midst of hard news. We don’t feel depressed or in despair … and that could only be the Lord! I have loved getting the diagnosis at this time of year because, consistent with our church’s sermon on Sunday, I am continually reminded, at Christmas, that He truly provided ALL I NEED in the birth and life and death of Jesus. In addition, He has reminded me that He is no stranger to the imminence of death and a shorter life (I am getting much more than 33 years) and a Father who grieved for His son like we grieve for ours. We have HOPE. And we aren’t Home (yet). God is good. And He provides. Always. And often even before we know the need ourselves.
We see our beloved Dr. Osborne tomorrow and will learn more about the results of the scans and liver biopsy and be discussing treatment plans – including the clinical trial she has in mind. We would love prayers for wisdom for her and for God to providentially point us to the best medicines for my body and to have His way in us. We will let you know what we learn.
Also, we will leave at some point Thursday to meet with Kent Osbourne in Houston at Baylor University Medical Center (not affiliated with our Baylor). He is the doctor who hosted and leads the breast cancer symposium that my doctor attended last week. And he knows a lot about various trials and which could be the best trial and/or treatment for me so I am thankful to have him on our team with our Dr. Osborne (yes, very confusing but they aren’t related and spell names slightly differently).
Thanks for the ways you have loved and prayed and supported us already. He has provided richly and abundantly through all of you.