I left bible study with friends this morning then walked with my friend Jenn. I then got in my car to meet up with Jamie and head to Baylor for a follow up with the heart doctor regarding my blood pressure. So the day started out rather routine. And sweet. At Bible study (again, anyone welcome on Tuesdays at 930-11 at Church of Incarnation) today we were in Psalm 37 and the majority of our conversation was about how the Psalmist exhorts us to trust the Lord, not fret, wait patiently, rest…
And, He will do it.
Psalm 37:5 Commit your way to the Lord, Trust also in Him, and He will do it.
All the while, unknown to me, I have 2 texts sent in the middle of this conversation. After the study and walk, I read (from beloved research nurse, Nancy):
Clear your schedule, ma’am. You’ve been given a spot on the new trial😀
He did it. He opened the door that we thought was closed and He keeps His promises… He ‘will go before you and make the rough places smooth…’ This is one of the first verses the Lord gave me when this whole wild pink ride started in February 2012. And it’s still true. He is still going before me and making the rough places smooth.
I am so thankful!
Just yesterday I got a text from Dr Osborne telling me she hadn’t heard from me and wanted to know how I was doing. I lamented about some unexplained pain in my abdomen and sides that often keeps me awake at night but she’s already done an ultrasound (showed nothing) and all she could do was sweetly say she was sorry about my pain – and offer hydrocodone:) We ain’t scared of pain meds around here. But in light of unexplained pain and wishing for more scans and answers, look what the Lord was doing in the background. So, now, I will have scans, blood work, MRI and weekly appointments and follow up. Not to mention access to medicine that isn’t available yet. Another bonus of this trial (which is rare) is that while they will be using my body and the others in the trial to determine right dosage and toxicity levels (essence of a phase 1 trial), I can actually have access to higher doses than just my trial group if I tolerate it well. That’s a great side benefit. And if the medicine works (‘works’ is defined as stabilizing the disease but we also know that Lord is able to use it to push back the cancer if He so chooses…) I have access to the medicine indefinitely. For free. These are huge blessings in the medical world. And huge gifts to me. I have much to rejoice in today.
I have already signed all the paperwork! Lots has changed in the 3 hours since I read their texts. There is a 14 day wash out period of the other medicines in my system but we are all smiles and thumbs up to start the new medicine on 10.14…
Thanks for praying and trusting and rejoicing and smiling with us. He will do it…
Love to all!💗
From Psalm 37:
39 The salvation of the righteous comes from the Lord; he is their stronghold in time of trouble. 40 The Lord helps them and delivers them; he delivers them from the wicked and saves them, because they take refuge in him.