Prayers, please

Hi everyone.  It’s Jamie.  Jen asked me to write and ask for your prayers.  She was admitted into the hospital yesterday with severe pain and vomiting.   How she went from shopping at Anthropologie with Mel & Gulley in Houston on Wednesday to the ER on Thursday baffles me.   This is the cruelty of cancer that I have come to abhor.  One day she is feeling well and the next she is a victim of such horrible pain.  There seems to be no rhyme or reason.  No pattern.  It’s maddening.  And to witness someone you love in pain is something none of us should have to endure.  Even when wearing a cute new outfit from Anthro.

I will recap the highlights of the day yesterday in an effort to provide details, but also so you know specifically how to pray for our Jen.

  1. Jen is taking pain meds to manage her pain, and now has a pain pump in place to help give her some control over managing of the hard stuff.
  2. Once the meds are administered, it takes about :10 for relief.  She never gets to a great place, but as she puts it a ‘very manageable’ place.
  3. She had a CT scan yesterday to try to determine the cause and it didn’t show any evidence that would explain the reason for this sudden pain.
  4. Dr. Osborne had an oncology surgeon come by to examine Jen to make sure she wasn’t missing anything.   And nope, she wasn’t.  Oh how we love our Dr. O for continuing to knock (beat) down every door in order to help Jen find relief.
  5. No word yet on when Jen will be released.  My suspicion is that they will try to determine why she is in pain and at the very least keep her there until her pain is manageable.  (But I’m only a photographer so don’t write that one down in a sharpie.)

You’d think being admitted to the ER would fill the daily quota of Clouse excitement, but no.  As if Jen & Scott’s day wasn’t hard enough, their car was stolen from the hospital when they were checking in yesterday.  Thanks to ‘find my iPhone’ (Jen’s phone was still in car), the police were able to recover the vehicle and only cash was missing.  Seriously?

And lastly, Jen’s sweet grandmother was ALSO admitted to the hospital (a different hospital) yesterday for shortness of breath.  Our good friend Hite took care of Vonie all day, and it turns out she had a mild heart attack.  Again I’m plagued with the question of how Hite went from modeling bar stools at Wisteria one day to sitting in the ER ALL DAY LONG with a 97 year old.  Is anyone seeing the uncanny similarity here?  Anthro/Wisteria?  All I’m going to say is maybe Hite and Jen should stop spending their free time in retail establishments.  Is a new crochet top or an acrylic stool worth it? (Don’t answer that).   The good news is Grandma Vonie is better today after hydration, but we would covet your prayers for her as well.

I can’t make this stuff up.  Someone call Warner Bros.

On a more serious note, thank you to all who have committed to praying for Jennifer, Scott & Lincoln.  This journey is not for the faint of heart or fair weathered friend.  This is a marathon.  This is an every day grind.  I know they appreciate the steadfastness of each of your friendships and every one of your prayers.

Along those same lines, Jen is struggling to even respond to the texts she received yesterday.  Which, if you know Jen, is noteworthy.  She seems to be ‘hanging on’ between pain pills, so it wouldn’t be fun for her (or you) to visit.  I know she reads each and every comment on the blog, so if you want to include a comment here please know they don’t go unnoticed.  And mainly I know she is DESPERATE for your prayers, so keep those coming.  The best way to love her right now is to do just that.

We serve a BIG and mighty God, and He is evident in every twist and turn of this cancer story.  The Clouse’s faith is as strong as ever and they continue to praise His name even in the midst of pain.  MercyMe sings a beautiful song called, ‘Bring on the Rain’.  I will leave with the lyrics of that chorus and it reminds me of how beautifully Jen is handling this immense struggle.

“Bring me joy, bring me peace, Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there’ll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that’s what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain”

Much love to you all,



115 thoughts on “Prayers, please

  1. I wanted you to know that, although we’ve never met, I’ve been praying for you and your sweet family. I’m just a random 50-something woman in central Florida, but you’re in my thoughts and prayers.

  2. Jen–praying for relief from your pain and discomfort and for you to feel wrapped up in the peace and presence of the Lord. Your steadfast faith and perseverance are such an incredible example to us all. Rest in His assurance. So many are
    Praying Without Ceasing,

  3. Asking, seeking and knocking that the Lord will alleviate the pain. Incredibly moved my your steadfastness in the Lord. God has truly moved mountains through your story!

  4. Dear Jen,
    It saddens me so much to hear you are suffering. I will continue to pray for you and your family every day.
    Your friend you haven’t met,

  5. Oh Jennifer, Praying fervently for you and your family. May you experience all of God’s peace and comfort through this incredibly difficult journey. Your faith and trust through this trial is such a testimony of God’s goodness and grace to a watching world. xo

  6. Praying, praying, praying for Jen, Scott and Lincoln. Your steadfastness and faith are so very incredible. Love from Mike, Vicki and Gracie McCormack

  7. Your heart and spirit are being UPLIFTED constantly
    in PRAYER by ours. Blessings to you IN EVERY MOMENT! Love you so.

  8. Jenn – praying for you this morning and can’t help but think you are sharing in His sufferings right now given He was on the cross today. Just want you to know I’m praying!






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  10. Prayers for you sweet Jen. Breaks my heart that you are in pain. I pray for our God to wrap his arms around you today and make you feel better. We love you!! More importantly, He loves you!!

  11. Heartbroken reading this, but grateful for His goodness–in friendships, in prayer warriors who love you, and stand with you, and mostly, in the cross. This good Friday is good with His love for you, precious friend, and His faithfulness. Praying for your pain to subside and for you to experience His nearness now. Love you so.

  12. “Only Jesus” can know the depth and reality of your pain! Praise GOD, JESUS is real, alive and proof of God’s grace, mercy, compassion and character. May you Jen and Scott “feel and sense” the tangible presence of Jesus.

  13. Oh Jen, I’m praying fervently for you and yours as you continue to glorify Him in your struggle and pain. You are deeply and dearly loved. 💖

  14. Sweet Jennifer , I am praying today that your pain will go away and you will have NO pain .I’m praying that you will feel Gods love and presence holding you and your dear family in his arms . Ann

  15. Oh no. Praying for Jen and family’s journey through their own Good Friday (but with faithful friends). Wonderful song Jamie. As you were describing her pain/courage/ love, this one came to mind (heart) from an older generation:

    Nearer my God to Thee
    Nearer to Thee
    E’en though it be a cross
    That raiseth me

  16. Ugh hate cancer. Hate the pain that it brings. Praying friend. Even as today we think of the pain our Savior endured….praying as you endure the pain of this journey. May He give you strength this day. ❤️

  17. My mother taught me that when I don’t have anything nice to say I should just keep my mouth shut, which I will do about those car thieves. I will focus on praying for their redemption and glory to God for each part of your story Clouse family. Praying relief from this round of severe pain and where words fail me, prayers without words brought to the throne for you. Joining with the army of warriors praying on your behalf…prayers from Denver.

  18. Jennifer, loving you and praying from Nashville. Praying without ceasing on this Good Friday for you, sister. Love you dearly… And holding you close in my heart.

  19. wow, my precious jen-i am so you are hurting and that someone stole your car and that sweet vonie had a heart attack. we are praying for you and your boys. thanks for living your life for jesus, even when you hurt. much love, melissa chandler

  20. I am praying …and will continue.
    Father thank you for my sister. Her courage. Her faith. Her endurance. Her zeal. Her love. Her strength. This day for her. Your promises for her. But Father I especially thank you for your love for her. Your perfection. Your goodness..even when we cannot see it I thank you that we…that Jen, Scott and even little Lincoln, see it. I ask that decisively and daily, moment by moment, your strength is evident to all of us.
    All who know y

  21. Just praying for sweet relief from pain, rest and inspired insight for your medical team. You are always on my mind and I will continue to pray for you and yours

  22. Love you friend! SUPER thankful for pain meds! Praying for you on this Good Friday…you will be on my mind and in my heart all weekend.
    Praying for relief from pain, rest, comfort and that you can go home soon
    Also praying for sweet grandma
    I lift my eyes to the hills-where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth Ps121:1-2

  23. I have kept up with most of your blogs Jen and I don’t think I have left a comment yet but wanted you to know I pray for you often and your steadfastness has been such an encouragement to me.

  24. Our dear sweet friends, our prayers and thoughts and love are with you and for you right now. Praying that God’s peace and relief from pain will be so abundant you can taste it!
    We love you, Norm and Beth

  25. I have never met Jen, but I feel she is a friend. I will send prayers abound for doctor’s wisdom, peace and pain free for Jen, grandmother’s heatlh and of course the ultimate miracle – tumors and cancer are gone! Lastly, BOO! to the people who stole their car.

  26. Driving to the lake and praying for you the WHOLE WAY friend!! Praying for pain relief, praying for rest/comfort, praying for your sweet Grandmom’s recovery and praying for peace and rest for your people as they take care of you! Love you!!!!!

  27. You are in my heart and prayers, dear sister in the Lord and now I’m sharing your breast cancer. I pray I can be as faithful and positive as you have been. Big hugs from Oceanside, CA. Jan

  28. Cannot even come close to imagining your pain, sweet Jen. Will continue to pray hard and daily for you, Jen and Scott and Lincoln. Hugs.

  29. I was asked to give a speech a few weeks ago about my favorite subject me. Doing research I came across the paper you wrote’–remember? I always cherish the fact that our paths crossed and that we had the opportunity to work, laugh and argue. I think of you and pray for you daily .

    Loving you


  30. Thankful for the opportunity to pray. Thankful for you. Thankful for good Friday. Resurrection Sunday feels sweeter every year. Love you so.

  31. Praying for you and Vonie right now. Praying for God’s overwhelming peace and comfort to fill you. We love you and hate hearing of your pain.

  32. Today being Good Friday- always thought that was an oxymoron as it wasn’t “good” for our sweet Jesus. But like today… The good was coming. The promise of freedom- pain free. Praying that through your pain today, your sweet body is repaired and removed from pain for his glorious day on Sunday to spend with your precious family. We have to endure pain to have a need for Jesus…thankful for your transparency through this process that spurs us on to a closer more intimate relationship with HIM. On a literal note, You are a rockstar!!!

  33. Praying for comfort of the physical kind. I know you are filled to the point of overflowing the spiritual. May you never doubt the purpose of your journey and may your only son find comfort, strength of character and peace as he some day reads and understands these posts. Blessings to all those who love and surround you.

  34. Praying and praying. 🙏🏼
    Jen, we hope today, Good Friday, is a great Friday for you, Scott and Linc.
    Much love, hugs and constant prayers! 💝💝💝
    xo, JoAnn

  35. I don’t have any words. This is all truly movie worthy! Praying they find source of pain and that you are released soon. Happy Easter!

  36. Much love to you Jamie and Jen and ALL the friends and family running the marathon. Praying accordingly. Always appreciate the details!

  37. I pray this link opens to give you a little chuckle from my precious niece Debbi. It sounds as if the life of the Clouse’s can use some chuckles with love and prayers. You’ve got them surrounding you always 🙂

    Sent from my iPhone


  38. McFarlanes are praying and appreciate the update. Your faithful dependence on Him is humbling. Thank you for the constant example of living for God’s glory amidst your pain.

  39. Jen I’m praying for strength for you and relief from this extreme pain. And I’m praying for perseverance for Scott and Lincoln. For fun for that sweet little boy, and smiles every day despite momma being so sick. Much love,


  40. Praying all the time sweet friend. I’m SO sorry you continue to have to endure such horrible pain.
    “Lord, please grant the Clouse family relief from the continual storms. Bless them, Father.”

  41. Jamie,
    Thank you so much for keeping all of us updated! And I love that MercyMe song. The lyrics are so true and Jen is such a remarkable example of how to stay deeply in faith and trust Him to provide while facing inexplicable challenges. Jen – you, Scott and Linc are always in my prayers and heart.


  42. I was thinking and praying for you and grandma this morning while showering. And then i read the blog. Contined prayers and wisdom/discernment f or docs….love you big JLC

  43. Praying for you & Scott & Lincoln! I continue to be amazed at the way you are handling this…such a testament. Somehow you are encouraging me while you are the one that needs to be encouraged. Praying to the Mighty Physician for all the things mentioned for you & your family.
    Much love, Kim Whitehead 💜

  44. Praying for you sweet Jen. And for Scott and Lincoln and your friends and family. Jesus give Jenn relief from the pain she’s experiencing. Hold her family close. We love you so much Lord. We trust you even when we don’t understand.

    Jamie thank you for the update and for being a friend.

  45. You don’t know me and I don’t really know you but thankfully our Lord Jesus Christ knows us both……I have prayed for you for some time now…….I live in northern Indiana ……there are no words to describe adequately how inspirational you and your family are. Please know you have touched the lives of many with your honesty and most of all your FAITH. Prayers do continue….thank you for the honor and the privilege. Pam

    Sent from my iPad

  46. Praying for you sweet gal! Our hearts are heavy for you…so saddened by your recent pains and hospitalization.

  47. Jennifer…I think of you so often and marvel at your strength and continued faithfulness. My heart aches and celebrates with you in your journey. Praying for you friend. Love you,

  48. There is not a day that goes by that you don’t cross my mind. Just want you to know that I am praying for you and praying right now that your pain goes away. I pray you have a restful night of sleep and a pain free day tomorrow. I am encouraged by your faithfulness and strength on this difficult journey.

  49. Jennifer- I may be down here in Austin but I want you to know I pray for you everyday. Your faith is a unbelievable encouragement to me. prayers for comfort and peace.

  50. Continued prayers for you and your family. You are an inspiration to this 45 year old wife and mother in New Jersey. I’ve been following your blog and you truly amaze me. Sending love and prayers.

  51. Jen, you bring new meaning to the phrase “shop till you drop” but you took I it a bit too far!! Praying the doctors can get your pain managed soon and you can go home!! Happy Easter to you, Scott and Lincoln!

    Sarah Hightower Bryan
    In Tyler

  52. Lord….in the darkness of this night, let your healing light pierce through and please give Jennifer some relief from the pain and uncomfortableness. Put your hand on her and give her peace.

  53. My heart is heavy & sad after reading this post. Thank you Jamie for loving Jen and for writing this post. Thankful you left your iPhone in the car so the police could recover the car & your phone. Praying for healing and comfort for your precious grandma; rest, strength & keeping pain to a minimum for you. Thank you Father for the Doctors you’ve surrounded Jen & Scott with& for their care over her. Also pray for Lincoln that he’ll experience sweet & fun memories this Sunday w/ his momma home. I echo what others before have said…your life has been and continues to be such a incredible witness for Jesus Christ. You truly are Jesus with skin on as you engage with, pour into, love on, encourage others & ultimately point them to Him.
    On another note, got to meet your friend Linda Green this week at Bible Study. We spent a lot of time talking and your name came up in conversation frequently. No worries…only good things were said!

  54. Sweet Jen!
    I am so sad to hear what you have been going through the last few days. I’m praying for you and your whole family. Jesus is right there with you – he has felt indescribable pain also on the cross. So He understands your pain. I’m praying for relief and a miracle. I am so sorry for your diagnosis and the challenges you face but at the same time, I am so encouraged by your story. How you cling to God, trust Him through all these hard times, and love Him… You are a strong woman of God, Jen. Thank you for being so open about your journey to inspire others to turn to God. Love you so much!!

  55. Dearest Jen, I will pray very specifically and boldly for you, sweet friend. That you will find answers and relief to the pain you are feeling and for your beautiful family and their strength as well.

    Please know you are covered in prayer. His angels are seriously wrapping their wings around you. Stay strong and let Him hold you and know that you are not alone. I love and adore you!!

  56. PRAYING…
    “The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.” (Lamentations 3:22-23)
    Praying new mercies for today and His steadfast love and peace in the midst of immense pain and suffering. Love you.

  57. Jen, Im so sorry for your pain! It breaks my heart for you! I appreciate your sweet and wonderful friends that take such good care of yall. I am praying for you everyday and more specifically for this pain to subside (at least to manageable) We miss you and love you !!!

  58. Thank you for keeping us all update. Continuing to pray for Sweet Jen and her precious family and friends. Praise God from whom all blessings flow!

    • Jennifer, you cross my mind many times in my daily routine. When you do my prayer is that the Holy Spirit will meet your every need at that particular moment for it is only He that truly knows what that need is and how it can be best met. I am blessed to be in your circle of friends and called on by our Lord to pray for you as He brings you to my heart and mind during my daily, ordinary tasks. What a privilege it is to go to Jesus on your behalf and what it does for me when I think of all the people your story is blessing because of your willingness to share it with the world through this blog. You are doing what Christ expects of us as Christians. And you are doing it in an impactful way. The special part of it all is that you are doing it with a pure heart. You just want others to know by your witness that Christ is sufficient for all our needs. That is the Easter story in a nut shell. He died for us and He rose again so that we might have life with Him forever after if we just BELIEVE. Thank YOU for believing and sharing and giving of yourself in this time of personal pain and suffering. I hate that you are experiencing such difficult days that none of us can understand but know we (each one of my family members) deeply care about you. Our love for you is special because YOU are special to us because of times we have shared in the past that have meant so much to us. Soak up His love for you because it is more than any of us can give and it is all you need. Being in His hands is the safest place to be and where else would you want to be? Rest in that knowledge and keep giving of yourself that you do in such a beautiful, selfless way! I am in your corner!!

      pam bullington

  59. I keep you and your sweet family in my prayers always. Even though I don’t know you personally, you have been a blessing to me.

  60. Sending many many prayers from Jen , her grandmother and their family from up here in Vancouver Canada. Jen is an inspiration to me as are all the loving people around her. Please hang in there-

    In my prayers-
    Jen in the Great White North

  61. Praying, praying, praying…for relief from pain and a special sense of God’s grace.
    Love in our Risen King,
    (No, we haven’t met yet, but we will Someday!)

  62. Oh if only your friends and many loved ones could take away your pain, just for a day.. they(we) would! You are so loved, may you feel that again for today. Jesus collecting tears of the saints on your behalf. Praying pain subsides that brings you home very soon, dearest Jen, friend to all ! all my love, maribeth

  63. Once again, I feel like a creeper. I have an alert set on my phone to pray for you and your sweet family each day. I trust God to work this all out and I know you do, too.

  64. I am reading ahead on the Journey today and it’s Matt 25:1-13 about the wise & foolish virgins. Like the wise & foolish who build on rock or sand. Matthew Henry’s commentary made me think of you, Jen and Scott, both going through this trial. He said: “Many have a lamp of profession in their hands, but have not, in their hearts, sound knowledge and settled resolution, which are needed to carry them through the services and trials of the present state. . . . The unexpected summons of death may alarm the Christian; but, proceeding without delay to trim his lamp, his graces often shine more bright; while the mere professor’s conduct shows that his lamp is going out.” You are showing the deep roots of your faith, and shining out to others your trust in a faithful God and Savior.
    Praying for relief from pain, nausea, and anxiety.

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